I came back to read to understand, yet still i cant.. after all the death i have seen in the hospital.. i always thought you over everyone would fight and beat this... im still crying im still in shock and mainly i still have a hole in my heart , i feel selfish cos i want you back.. i feel sad angry and all knotted up inside... i think of you and i cant stop crying.. never again will we play games never again will i yell at someone to leave you alone... most of all never again will i be able to talk with you and see your nickname pop up... i dont know how long i will mourn for i dont know how long i will feel like my heart has been ripped from me... you were my friend..we were all supposed to grow old together.. who is gonna kick my arse now or make me see reason? Talk sense into me? Didnt you know we all loved you so very much... why didnt you tell me? why? I will see you one day ... and you will be pain free.. :) for that im greatful.. well at least you wont be stalked anymore lmao.. that makes me smile... Tina i love you ... ill never forget you ... you will haunt me ... lol i know you will .. just reach down from heaven when i screw up okay LOL and kick my butt .miss you so very much